and you’re still hoping for a miracle
Bodies in the streets
and nobody’s got a cure
the children are dying
but they were dead all along
casualties of a war you didn’t know was going on
to the questions being asked
you’ve got no reasons
for the fear and all the wrath
nobody’s listening and the screaming’s getting louder
but we turn up our music and dance a little harder
for the patients on the steps
tell them to “come in”
you can die under our watch
the nurses are standing with nothing left to do
until they, too, fall prey to life’s undoing.
to the ground as we all watch
he’s got no reason
to be standing in the path
of this madness but he’s there,
says it’s a calling, and I’m scared
but what can we do?
just watch our stones keep rolling.
hush little baby don’t say a word
papa’s gonna buy you a mocking bird
and maybe that little birdie won’t sing
and maybe there won’t be any diamond rings
maybe it’ll stare at you from the shelf
and maybe you’ll have nightmares with no one to help
but if you just hush now, and don’t say a word
maybe, just maybe, you won’t get hurt.
maybe, just maybe papa will care
maybe your mama will stroke your hair
maybe someone will buy you a ring
maybe you’ll have reasons to sing
but only, only, if you don’t say a word
then papa will buy you that mocking bird.
and that bird will cry in the middle of the night
and that bird wants to fly but your hands are too tight
there’s nowhere outside to build it a nest
nowhere inside for its small head to rest
but hush little darling, and don’t say a word
your papa will buy you a mocking bird.
you know when you’re crying?
and it’s like, shit, I mean, crap, I wasn’t going to do this
It’s not a big deal
but it is
I’ll get over it
And you will
but right now it’s just this crushing disappointment
you didn’t expect to have
and the knowledge that you’ve failed again
and maybe it’s just who you are
because all your life
failure is the one constant.
(I was never talking to you
this was always about me, my dear)
I’m panicking and its not a good feeling—
I don’t think I’ll do very well at this university thing.
I’m up late and I want to talk to somebody who doesn’t know what a failure I am.